insects and tastes

something weird that i've noticed lately is that i seem to have less fear of bugs and reptiles i used to have major fears of. i've felt a strong connection and compassion towards animals my whole life. everyone that has ever known has known i love animals. i find myself feeling more like who i am created to be by eating the way i am now. a side effect of that seems to be less fear. spiders, bugs, creepy crawlies and snakes and reptiles of the sort don't seem to scare me as much as they used to. i know that the linkage doesn't seem to connect. it's not like i was eating bugs and reptiles before and now i'm not. i'm not really sure the reasoning, but it is one of the effects.



i have not been as strict lately. i find myself taking tastes or not checking all ingredients as much as i should, and i am paying the price for this. one night i stole a bite of ice cream from my wife's stash. a couple times, while eating out, i just assumed something would be ok without asking/checking ingredients. last night, i knew there was a bit of cheese in some pasta salad and the pasta probably had egg in it, i ate it anyway. i got sick every time. i won't go into detail about that, but my can attest to this. my liver is still broken and i feel my body will never go back to letting me eat the way i was before. i am ok with that.



i am, like stated before, realizing this is who i am and who i am meant to be. i am, also, realizing that just because this is who i am, this doesn't mean this is who everyone is/should be. i do believe that, as a whole, americans need to greatly change how they eat, but that doesn't necessarily mean (faux)vegan.